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This thick, dark, moldy blanket that covers me,
Churns my ignorance, blinds my eyes, makes me weep,
Just as rapid as the evil that creeps through my soul,
It plunges me down a deep dim ravine hole,
And the light that penetrates in every once and again,
Is mere hope I grasp but can’t seem to sustain.

I pray this polluted sky would clear up now,
For it leaves me suffocating, hurling me into the ground,
And for every part of me I despise so immensely,
I sacrifice it even further to vulnerability,
When the angel of death comes for me,
I’ll devoid him a fight, I’ll follow him with glee,
For I long for him to collect me swiftly as the wind,
May the dagger that stabs me end my suffering.

Gratify my desire to leave or may kill to depart,
For no longer I live left with this cold rotten heart,
My shallowness, this hollowness, it makes me hard,
As I watch and allow my soul to rot, decay, self-destruct,
Although I have breathed the air and tasted the blood,
But I am without existence for I am much too proud.

This cancerous growth that inhibits me,
This rampant disease that incubates my body,
Similarly like maggots devouring my flesh,
As I watch in horror with so full of detest,
Slow and steady it violently annihilates me,
I scream in terror but on ones hears me.

It wouldn’t matter even if I lost my entire body,
It could incinerate in flames and I wouldn’t feel sorry,
Because the puny and frail soul that resides in me,
Is weak, vulnerable and is prone to bleed,
I just can’t figure a way to escape reality,
To live life like a human, I haven’t the ability.

I loath my weakness, my existence, my all,
Can never be content with the things I saw,
The voidness in me multiplies with time,
Spreading and murdering whatever I call mine,
Sooner or later it will take me to my inevitable death,
I’ve lost everything, gained nothing as I exhale my last breath.