A stark, blank, white wall stared back at me,
Unblinkingly and unwaveringly like those of a moon,
Cold and unforgiving.
Restlessness shifts through the pages of tired thoughts,
With only the fear of waking up to face the bittersweet sorrow,
A sorrow so great it reveals the longing and love beneath.
I’m close to breaking down,
Would my life be the same again without you?
For it’s you I miss.
Life means nothing if not spent with you,
Close to your sweet smell of soap and aftershave,
I even missed the way you ate!
But now that you’re gone,
The thought of you is all that ever comes to mind,
On these long, lonely endless nights.
Why did I carry on when you’ve stopped?
Why did I run when you walked?
Why did I not want you when all you want is me?
The day I turned and left, was the day I regret,
For what I had, I did not see,
The love we had was more than gold.
Now that months have passed with us leading our own lives,
Somehow underneath it all seemed unreal,
For you are mine no more…