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No topic today. Just wanted an outlet to rant my heart out.

Wait…wait..I think it’s coming to me…a topic!

Hold on…it’s coming…coming…GONE!

Was too busy typing that I forgot what I wanted the topic to be.

Obama is now officially the first black president of the United States of America.

Just randomly throwing a fact into this post. I didn’t hear it over CNN nor radio nor TV nor the papers. I heard it from a friend.

I don’t really read the newspapers nor watch the news anymore.

Just too much fucked up things happening in the world these days. That is not to lump together with Malaysian politics of course.

I don’t know much about politics at all really, so I can’t talk intelligently about them. I guess if I were to want to know more, I’d have to read the papers again someday.

Really though, all these mindless rants are just nothing but an excuse for me to post here today.

I don’t really blog anymore.

What’s the point.

I’m bored.

And theres nothing I’m currently interested in posting about nowadays.

But because I have internet friends concerned about where I have been these days, I have posted another post after yesterday’s post.

But I guess, this post, like yesterday’s doesn’t really say what I’ve been doing lately and where I have gone to.

It doesn’t really matter because everyday is the same old same old.

Maybe tomorrow will be more interesting.

Maybe I will post again tomorrow.

Maybe I will stick to blogging.

Maybe I say maybe too much.

Maybe…

How hard is it to make a life decision?

Indeed, how hard can it be?

Isn’t it a matter of choosing the best possible solution to benefit oneself?

Isn’t it?

Perhaps.

But it’s easier said than done.

Shouldn’t the decisions you have to make involve only you?

I wished it were true.

But it isn’t.

Most decisions made in life have, if not direct, indirect aftereffects trust upon those affected by the decision made.

This is especially so if you happened to have made a BAD decision.

If it had been a GOOD decision, those involved would more often than not, not recognized it.

Theres a definite unfairness to it. But heck, life’s unfair…

To stay the way I am, or to go on a diet and exercise frenzy? (Mother’s request)

I like the way I look right now, but mom has already spent a fortune on a gym membership on me.

Decision made with pressure.

I’d like to live in a slow-paced life, but to live luxuriously, I’d have to have the means.

Since I don’t have the means, I’d have to live a fast-paced life until I have the means. And I have to consider the welfare of my family before my own.

Again, another decision made.

Surprisingly, the decisions made so far are rather easy as I’m looking at it from a third person view.

I know making decisions are a necessity in life.

I concur.

But I’d like to make a decision…just for me, and affects only me sometimes.

I’d like to be selfish too.

I can.

Right?